Adjustments Making and Results to improve in the Race of Life Part One
Today once again I write about life and need changes. I am one that suffers and lives through
numerous mental health conditions. I
realize that with this being home working from home and just being stationary,
that I need more structure to do the little things every day to improve my
life. More structure because if not I
will freak out and all of it falls like London bridge. I need to make the adjustments to a schedule
every day just doing little adjustments.
I say adjustments instead of changes because its not trying to get it
all back because like in racing if you try to change it all go worst to first. This will put more stress on the engine and
the structure of the car will fail. The
biggest issue I have is that I can have one little moment a hiccup and with me
at times I throw it all out. Most would
say because I am a perfectionist however it’s just anxiety and lower confidence
that we do this most of the time. I need
to just like a golf swing and take my time, hit every step. Do not miss a rung on this new ladder of stability. Stay the course like I am a coach in football,
not giving up on a run because of a small gain.
Just chip away stay on the game plan however I am human, so it is
hard. I will write about my journey
because right now I weigh in about 229 pounds.
I need to get down however need to focus on my strength not just running
and getting weight down lower but getting body fat lower. Wake up push ups and core work then get a
coffee start my day while I log into work.
Next is lunch and breaks leaving the computer go outside
walk run and be active. I must write all
of this down on a schedule. Make sure I follow
the schedule like my life depends on it.
That is why I will write it on this blog as a series of entries. My diet must be changed and watch my drinking
however I still want to enjoy my life. When
we cut ourselves off then we usually have a binge happen because mentally we
have a deficit. We always must pay the
piper at the end of the day. Focus is
hard for me sometimes because I am like oh look over their type person. Call it ADHD or whatever you want. This lack of focus sometimes I need to follow
steps almost at a paint by number rate.
No room for quitting because if I am just left without nothing will get done,
I will overthink it. Over thinking will
shut down the whole internal system almost like a safe mode that my mind and
body go into this mode.
I looked around tonight and once again my room are a symbol of
my mind set. If it is a mess, I am a
mess mentally. Tine to clean up all
these areas. I then say that this seems easy to say however
the bigger the mess the harder it is to clean up. Therefore, my grandma said pick up every day
to save time in the future then you spend it today. It is the same with relationships spend time
to not have to devote all the time in days to play catch up like in
racing. Well remember I was talking
about visiting friends and the pain sometimes that is because one I tend to
lock away in my hole which is good sometimes however I tend to go full blown
then I feel bad I am not around my friend’s that are family. Once again, the race that is life, I am
playing keep up then it takes its toll mentally, physically then I crash and
breakdown. Being human is not always fun
however it is life you need to live it.
Small different changes every day to gain on each lap. Do not forget balance and with my birthday
coming up I know the scales as a libra need to be balanced. Have fun however not to forget to get things
done. I waste so much time trying to
wake up and I shut down. I must wake up
on schedule sleep on another. We all
know this is almost impossible. Almost
is the operative word because I know now it seems to be mission impossible
however all things are possible within reason.
I now know what I must do the rest is just the small
adjustments and writing about it everyday not just for the entertainment of
others to read, to also keep me accountable.
Making sure as I read what I type it is absorbed. This is a mirror for me to look at everyday
to assure success I cannot take my eyes off of it or like many celebrities I can
pretend I am perfect. A must is to get out and date as well, yes many females
have fallen off however I will make small adjustments to wear the hell out of
this word. I use it because then it will
be stuck in my head and hopefully anyone that encounters this set of
entries. Making sure I post on this series
is an everyday affair for the near future to build a habit and not let it go by
the wayside. Well thank you for reading
and hope you look forward to results as I do to report them.
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