Adjustments Making and Results to improve in the Race of Life Part Two

 

Well welcome to today, yes once again I did not sleep great too much always on my mind.  I know on this day the one adjustment I must make is to be more fun in my life.  I tend to dwell or sink into a pit of despair.  I tend to go into a hole wrap up from the world because I am sensitive with all of my senses that sometimes I just want it all dull and I go into my hole.  Today the adjustment is just more coffee from lack of sleep once again.  This is a constant and have to deal with on an everyday basis.  Going to work and dating applications when I go on a walk.   Yes, a walk like I am a hundred years old.  I am still battling non-Covid sickness as the tests stated.  We all know that they are very accurate, while I sit here sick most people focused on are the ones without symptoms.  Okay time to not go down the negative road on this one.  Its like going down a hill with no breaks, stop before you get rolling that negativity. 

Time for pushups to get the blood pumping.  This is one adjustment and yes I will be counting it like the Count from Sesame Street One yes one adjustment ha ha ha.  Did my walk along with 2500 steps for break and not running until I get my health back.  Might even do the beach body Insanity.  I did my walk and got above the 5000 steps I promised to get at after lunch.  I accidently snap chatted that girl in my early morning snap chats to friends.  I know you can say it was my subconscious sending that message however it was hitting numerous people on my list.  I sent that video to numerous people I should not of sent one to.  I have deduced that people think I am a desperate dog that they can play.  This is only on social media not people I consider family. 

Females and others that have friend zoned me in my lost areas of roaming the desert of anxiety and confusion.  I think this is starting to help, I feel a little better who knew I just had to listen to myself.  I know that those that care have also said this but I would like to toot my own proverbial horn for a minute.  I can admit even in my selfish writing of vanity.  Most would say that in order to try to get me back in the mindset users like when I am more submissive instead of myself.  Oh believe me you will hear from that submissive bum that cares too much about everybody and just wants those girls to be happy. 

At times I hate feeling like this even though I am still recovering from being sick because the fall is a far one.  Usually this ends in a night of me laying there wondering why life is so crazy.  Trying to find stuff to get excited for other than the prospect of logging out of work in which I love.  I would have to take a journey to the park to get eaten up by bugs and hope for the beautiful scenery more than the trees and nature.  Yes, I am talking about females that I find visually appealing while I drop weight to be more visually appealing to the opposite sex.  I am trying to upgrade myself as well.  I dislike the person in the mirror, I look like after Rome fell such a waste of something great.  Yes, sometimes this is a me pep rally.  I find the drive sometimes and figuring out if I have the push to be that person I know to be.  I will go to the park and let everyone know about the beauties or lack there of scenery.  Many times people will say does there looks matter to you and you place value on their looks.  Yes, because as a man I do find visually appeasing women to be more valuable than the latter.  I know that the world is better if I make myself more visually appealing.  I have to get a look now before the ugly winter makes them put on more clothes but then there is yoga pants the double edge sword that goes from oh my gosh to what the hell are they thinking extremes.  I think then damn the creator for the sites I see. 

Now I get to the rest of my day if I do not end this now my friends will stop reading because of it being too long.  Another day a little more progress in my adjustment adventure.