Random Anxiety Friday Night

 As I approach the microphone because I ain’t no joke.  I know so eloquently spit those lyrics.  Well I know this is not actually a microphone however this is how I speak my words to the masses.  People know I hate politics right now I feel comfortable watching the world burn like my own reality show.  I have enjoyed watching people run around crazy because their outside matches inside of my head however I know that my head has been damaged while the world runs around acting like victims because of what history?  Slavery was so long ago and no one alive today has witnessed any of that pain.  Now I see nut jobs running around aimlessly and crazily saying that they are being oppressed because of skin color or sexual orientation however if someone says hey I am going to church.  These people are tared and feathered then burned at the steak like a witch in Salem.  People are just lost were just being conservative seems to be wrong.  Wanting to just be with one person of the opposite sex is considered bad.  We have opened Pandoras Box and we cannot put that back in the box.  I do not know where anything is coming from in these days of confusion and fuckery for lack of a better descriptive words.  I have females do not understand my words then all of a sudden hear what they want.  I know that was a left turn however that is what I got hit in the mouth with as I was writing.  Its lunacy of hearing what I say is wrong or interpreted in their twisted delusional twist that even M. Night Shyamalan would say is strange.  To say how did they came up with this lunacy because of my accent or whatever to automatically go to allegations is just wrong.  Most of the time to be real they are just trying to get me into a fight so they can feel the pain or have someone to blame. 

I am tired of just bullshit and trash of the world I just want to be happy not have everything twisted because the world twists everything up to what they want it to appear to make them happy.  Extreme changes that most people only see or want because hey small changes each day will lead to more happiness however most are in a drug culture of extreme feelings.  Each extreme change giving them the high they are searching not even realizing that small changes help each day go by better.  This is not as strong however it builds to great happiness.  People want to win the lottery or have one good idea that has instant money however they do not want to just grind everyday and build.  I have been similar in my workout trying to gain all the gains in one day.  Working out is a building block chipping and chiseling each day slowly.   I am one to be not listen to me like so many others do.  This is why I type out and write my thoughts to remind me not to take the red pill and go down the wrong road. 

Happiness is one beam of sunshine everyday slowly enjoying and absorbing it slowly not a shock however just like water is better digested slowly.  Well after my anxiety fire is burning I must bid you all goodnight till next time.