Win the day, they will not win

 Morning a start of a new day, you have a blank canvass to paint away the regrets from yesterday.  You can paint a masterpiece however at times because of that evil entity the past or just being worn down mentally from life we start at a deficit.  I write what I feel because you have to see the good and the bad to know about the sincerity of each post.  Not that your so vain, you think every post is about you.  Sorry had to put that because its true when you care about someone, you do not want them to hurt believe me.  I wake up every morning at this deficit however that does not have the right to dictate my day.  The past will not victimize me to ruin the present every day.  Some nights and days the past wins a battle or two however this is not without a fight.  I will not go gently into the night, I will rage ,rage against the dying of the light.  

I hate that days I am not present people can not find me even though, I am standing right in front of them.  The lost look in my eyes when I am transported to a past event.  The thousand yard stare some people call it and I come back feeling scared because the past will not let me go.  I fall short of expectations sometimes because I am human at times.  Yes, we are all humans with emotions and feelings.  We care because our human starts acting up however most just nonchalantly just state they do not care inside because to feel is real to hide is not.  To dismiss people because some may spit the anger, fear or hate inside like venom.  Just to say I do not care.  Shutting down like a house boarded up house before a hurricane however the storm never comes.  

I am guilty of this exact behavior because I know that I fall short however I get chances to make up for the times I miss the mark.  In Batman begins a quote “why do we fall? So we can learn to pick ourselves back up.”  We should be lucky that in life has not been perfect because with a little salt makes a cake taste sweeter.  My grandma said the devil makes people without pain however god brings them back to earth because he cares we know hurt and pain.  I know I feel beaten down and made wrong choices trusting the wrong people.  This should make those few that have been a good choice a loving one seem better however sometimes we do not see that blinded by fear.  Those that choose to hurt, the emotional terrorists should not win.  

Let us not fall short today rise up together offer a hand to those in a deficit.  Help each other out of the holes that life would like us to dwell in.  Enjoy the emotions of the day because that means your human.  Time to get to work this morning for me.  I will not let the emotional terrorist or the past anger, hurt and pain win this day.