Merry Christmas Lets keep talking

 

Today is the day before Christmas Eve, so I figure I will make a nicer blog or just some thoughts.  I always figured being straight up and down like six o’clock was always the way to be.  At times it is a double edge sword with people.  Honesty scares people and I will not lie it scares me too to reach back and think about all the events that negatively impacted my life.  I should write that I have had love from people like my grandmother. Part of me knows that I have shared too much that most will have a issue with me.  The negatives in my life are not who I am now.  They helped shape the person in a positive way however I know there have been some dark times, and I have been forth coming about these times.  I can talk about it to tell people that I have came far since that period.  I found a way out of a bad situation to clear my head and learn to live life. The dark times make me feel like you do when you have been inside all day then go outside.  The light was great after sitting in the dark for so long.

It is bright however this is a wake-up call and has been so wonderful for me.  I do get a little stressed down then shut down like my computer when I make it mad, then goes into safe mode.  I know people get tired of dealing with me and most separate themselves from me when I explain the past.  I wish it did not happen however I am doing better.  I just wanted to be open and honest however yes, I realize that it’s a little strong.  I am happy now and working towards more happiness because it can always be better like sprinkles on a cup cake.  Not always needed however they are so good.  Now for those that do not like sprinkles I do not want to hear about it.  Life is beautiful and oh so great.  Like I always write the disclaimer I have the right to change my mind at any time. 

I will repeat my grandmother was an angel that I loved with all my heart.  I know I can be better sweeter like I say when I order my coffee.  They ask how you like it and I say light and sweet like me however as it has been stated I am not sweet.  I am full of love and happiness with zero thoughts of harming myself or the defensive coordinator of LSU.  I always had to mention that, it is going to be a great Christmas.  Thank you for reading this blog.