Wake the FUCK up Jalen!

 

I have been considered the bad guy with the women I have dated or the ones I was engaged to.  Why is this you ask?  The victim culture that plagues our nation, that most absorb when a breakup happens.  I try not to be a victim in any relationship.  I know that I am not perfect with most of the relationships that I am in or the ones that are not exactly a relationship or not tagged as one.  I want to be transparent in my dating life.  Let me state I can always say what I want. 

The last ones were just an abortion and I was careful however when I am all in it’s the same result.  Maybe it is me I thought however I cannot take all the credit except for the choosing the wrong candidates.  I know that I have tried different approaches still not working however I have gone the opposite not giving a damn if I find someone since I have found that people like to be rejected.  I need to be the Harvard of dating and just reject all and be more selective.  Tired of looking thirsty to people as it pertains to love.

I have investigated myself in the mirror and stated you are pathetic.  For those not up with the word thirsty, it means feeling or need for liquids or feelings.  Thirsty like a dog for affection is the example used for this meaning that makes me sick to my stomach.  How have I fallen this far to be looking this horrible and degraded myself. 

That is the past and the future must change for me to look at the man in the mirror without being sick or saddened how the mighty have fallen.  I used to hold myself as a king now its like I have been beaten to be a slave to be used as a gladiator.  I know that is a little much and the plot for the movie gladiator.  Are you not entertained?  The difference was I lost my pride while he fought to keep his for a while.  I have made many mistakes in my life but giving up on myself is one of them. 

Okay I have not given up on me fully or I would not have written this blog.  I know that I cannot stop because a few that were unworthy of me to think about them anymore.  Time to move on and know my worth not to be put on the sideline because I am a star not a bench player.  I know here comes the asshole bragging about himself cocky son of bitch.  I have confidence why should I hide it?  It is not now days beta male standards.  Lets geaux Jalen time to take back your life.  Wake up you are not dead or just a guy that is on his last leg and does not deserve an amazing special something in your life.  You are not broken down and cast aside like a car in the yard. Rusted and cast off waiting for someone to make a project to restore you.  I came here to kick ass and chew bubble gum, and I am all out of bubble gum.