Hodor Everyday until they use me up
Today I would like to be transparent about my fear and my day to day struggle. Today has turned into a great morning mentally. These do not happen every day. See my brain is like one of those wrestlers or professional athletes that have injuries, wake up feeling the pains of the past. Some days the uphill battle from the time I wake up to I go to sleep, just to make me feel good to have a great day. I battle I push demons back like Hodor in the Game of Thrones closing the door with the white walkers pounding on the door. Sometimes Hodor keeps them out then sometimes I cannot hold the door and get overwhelmed. I used to be great at pretending or putting on the mask or the show as I call it however, I just want to be real. I want the people to know that it is not as easy and with the mask I was not being real or genuine. I know that times people saw cracks in which a couple of my exes would say I cannot handle you showi...